`Faiz Lah` ^_^

2010-11-25T20:44:00.002+08:00

okay tues was on my B'DAY!!!hahahaha
sorry lack of update but i guess i only do it when i am really pissed off.
okay so~ my birthday was like a normal everyday life as usual.
hahaha. i knw i knw special day usually should be celebrated.
but..the things is..for me a special day like this is never meant to be celebrated
cause i'm not truly accepted in this world. why?
cause my dad, family, my friends, everyone even the person i like doesn't truly accepted me
an i just want to stop living as it is. the only thing that can kind of make the pain go away, believe or not smoking. its like my painkiller. it is one thing that can let me 4get abt all this shit.
even now i feel like smoking.
you always talk abt $$$$$$ i'm sick of it. i clearly need to find a part time job after graduation.
but what? 7/11 maybe?
seriously its not my fucking fault that ur friends is earning more. blame ur fucking boss..

2010-10-27T19:38:00.002+08:00

hey!
hahaha, today at work its the 1st time in this 2 years that i had alot of fun..muahahahah
hard to believe?? yeah i knw. hehehe.
well anyway right now dad is seriously pissing me off..
fuck, like seriously i'm not that religious like you are..really this highly "religious" ppl are so stupid..
dun they learn tat too religious actually bring trouble..pfft "adults"
they nva learn...
honestly i thought i made myself clear that in terms of religion i'm not going to be so strict abt it..
cuz i've done things which against the teachings..but i'm still part of it in e society..
i'm not going to be e 'iman' type. ok..
dun they see tat e more they stress abt it e more we won't do it.. e reason bcuz some "adults" cant be trusted, even ur own parents.
like as if they have never done things that they think is stupid b4..haiz..honestly dun they look back and learn.?
u cant force a religion to a person, i believe that e time will come when a person is ready for it..
i smoke, drink and sometimes eat food which is not halal..to be honest but, i still follow some of e teachings okay. prayer wise urmm.. name me 1 teen right here u knw who prays all 5 times everyday single day in a week, year, life. cant ans? of course u cant cuz no 1 here realli did pray all 5 times. pfft. and some adults say "its only 5! what is so difficult?" fuck la..they themselves dun pray all 5 and expect us to..pfft.! u see how logical i am..hahahaha makes sense right?
so if u feel lazy be honest abt it even if ur parents make a fuss abt it. tell them off. what abt their younger days?i'm sure they would understand i think..hahaha.
me dad? oh his a pain in e ass alright.. expect me to pray even during working hours.pfft.
realli sick.. i think i have to give him a knock on e head to make his senses come back..hahahaha.
i say it but i dun do it..cuz i still love and respect him, but sometimes i do find him annoying and a hard head..hahahaha..
okay tats all..bye
pA!5

2010-10-25T18:34:00.002+08:00

hey everyone...
had SIM today and it was kind of a happy and bad day..
bad thing was S***** was pressuring us like fuck..hahahaha
okay the good thing.
i sat beside Bella e whole day..YES AH!!
woohooo she is so~ cute..OMG..
really i used to think she is ignorant but now hahahahaha..
i realli like her. Huda?ermm. hard to say..she is a nice girl and kind of dun want to break that image hers.
BUT Bella ooohhh she is so~~ OUCH!hahahahaha.
and guess what i think she likes me..yes i knw i knw like me??kidding ritee?hahaha
nope she was e down who invited me to sit beside her..muahahahaha
what does that mean??hahahahaha
okay tats it for now...
pA!5 Bella oh Bella..hahahaha

2010-10-22T22:59:00.002+08:00

haiz i am so sway..
yesterday kena counselling form again..
and now today kena scolding..
i'm tired really tired..
nursing is definitely not my line..
i miss kak i realli do..
i dun care.. i will still call you kak even if u hate me, scold me, despise me
i WILL call u kak, bcuz u are...
now what the hell am i going to do i'm already on e blacklist.
if i end up seeing the section head, i'll be so~~ dead. and fail.
i juz want to end it..end this course so i can think of what i am going to do for my
future. but e truth is i just want to stay at home and juz live life like a lazy pig..
cuz i realii dun knw what i want to do..chef?haiz..
i am so~ hopeless.
i reali feel like ending this life of mine..cuz right now i can no longer handle it.
actuali i wanted to be a voice actor? go japan and maybe bcome a voice actor?
i realli want to go to japan and enjoy life there.
till i breath my final breath i guess.
so now how??well should continue living for now..
i want someone to truly understand me inside and outside my heart..
tell them my biggest secret, share my pain, happiness, sadness everything..
sounds like a relationship right? well is possible i realli want one...
okay thats it bye..
pA!5 4242564

2010-10-16T21:32:00.002+08:00

hey its me..
i really need to let it out now..
they told me how they feel when i'm arnd..
and i felt completely, utterly fucking disgusted with myself..
what am i doing getting the way of others relationships??
I'M SUCH A JERK!
they have been so supportive for me. gave me strength. gave me faith, hope. and gave me advice.
and what i gave them?? PROBLEMS. i feel so~ god i want to kill myself for their sake.
I'm happy for them, but i just can't seem to do, what i want to do..
i knw many times i cross the line. but the line kept getting smaller and smaller.
i didn't want to step over their head but i did.
ITS NOT EASY FOR ME TO FIND A RELATIONSHIP, I'VE BEEN TRYING FOR LIKE A YEAR?
I REALLY WANT TO NOT JUST YOU GUYS BUT ME TOO. I KNW U HAD TO TAKE MY FEELING IN CONSIDERATION I APPRECIATE THAT. I ALWAYS FELT KIND OF AWKWARD, BEING ALONE SINGLE.
I ALWAYS CRY MY HEART OUT EVERYTIME I WENT INSIDE MY ROOM. KEPT TALKING TO MYSELF, MAKING SELF DELUSIONS. EVERYTHING THAT CAN MAKE ME GO PSYCHO. A FREAK!
I HATE BEING ALONE, EVERY NIGHT I WISHED THAT MY FANTASIES WOULD COME TRUE. BUT FUCK IT AIN'T GONNA HAPPEN. THIS ISN'T FAIRY TALE OR ANYTHING BUT I WISH IT WAS.
WHY WON'T THIS PAIN JUST STOP!!!!!?????
EVERYTIME I LOVE THERE WILL BE HATE. SO I SHOULD HATE TO BE LOVED??
THIS IS SO LIKE ASLAM. NO OFFENCE. BUT I JUST CAN'T SHAKE IT OFF.
MAYBE I SHOULD DISTANCE MYSELF FROM THEM FOR A WHILE. I GUESS MY PRESENCE JUST CAUSE PROBLEMS.. I LOVE THEM, THEY ARE MY HAPPY MOMENTS.
BUT WHAT ABOUT THEM.. I'VE BEEN SO~~ SELFISH THINKING EVERYONE IS HAPPY BUT THE FACT IS SOMETIMES THEY'RE NOT.. AND NOW I KNW.!
I SHOULD APOLOGIZE AND MAYBE DISBAND MYSELF FROM THEM. YEAH MAYBE THAT'S A GOOD IDEA.. IT WILL BE BETTER FOR EVERYONE..THEY WON'T MISS ME..THEY HAVE EACH OTHER, I JUST KNW THEY WILL ALWAYS BE HAPPY.. I JUST KNW IT..
IF I MET THEM OR ANYTHING I SHOULD PUT ON MY HAPPY FACE..
YEAH MAYBE THAT WON'T LET THEM WORRY ABOUT ME..
WTH?? WHY WOULD THEY WORRY ABT ME..HAHAHAHHAA I'M SUCH A DUMBASS..
THEY WON'T EVEN REALIZE I'M NOT THERE...YEAH THAT WOULD BE BETTER..
MY EXISTENCE WILL BE TOTALLY ERASE..YES THAT'S GOOD. NO MORE PROBLEMS WILL EVER HAPPEN AGAIN..YEAH THEY NO NEED TO WORRY..RIGHT THEN ITS SETTLE I SHOULD DISTANCE MYSELF FROM THEM FOR NOW..OR MAYBE TILL NEVER..
YEAH THAT WOULD BE BETTER.. CAUSE I KNW I WON'T BE IN A RELATIONSHIP ANY SOON..WHATEVER EVENTS THEY MAKE I WILL JUST SAY I'M BUSY YEAH THAT'S A EXCELLENT IDEA...MY GOD I'M SUCH A GENIUS!!!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

after 9 months

2010-09-29T18:44:00.002+08:00

hey everyone hahahahaha..wow! 9 months i never blog hahaha..
how am i?? okay la..haha okay tat was a lie..actualli i'm not okay..
i read my past post and i realize that" ok i think i got abit more better than last time"
feeling.=)
haiz..3 months then we're graduating shit i feels so short and you knw unsatisfied.
i'm really gonna miss kak Ain, Ayul, and everyone, the thought i might not be able to see them makes want to cry my heart out and hug them and tell how i feel deep inside. i knw tat i;m desperate love in the past, but because the love they gave me was so warm that i want to be with them for the rest of my life. I became much more lively, positive, cheerful and happy because of them. haiz i just want to give them a 'BIG HUG' i really do. hehehe. Right Now I'm at home bored nothing to do and abit heart broken. thats why i'm bloggig hehehe. 7,8,9 oct is our chalet and I knw i'm going go wild and release all my tension, pressure, stress sitting at home. i dun care what others say I'm going to stay close around kak Ain.hehehehe. although Ayul is going to be mad.hahaha. sometimes i want to cut open my chest and show the people i love how my heart looks. my heart? how it looks like?.
well its kind of a dark, tormented, broken heart really,hahahaha, yes i knw EMO..
okay then i guess should stop for now..but i would want to say what i always say.
KAK AIN I LOVE YOU!!<3 AyUL you too..hahahaha i can't say i love you to you can I?
hahahaha
pA!5

17/12

2009-12-17T21:37:00.002+08:00

hey ppl...
right now i feel that my head is going to burst..soo many things happening at once..
first this and that then that and this..haiz...
I feel like jumping off a building I tell you..

Today nothing much fetch mummy from dialysis just now...hahaha
suddenly met my old patient there...hahas.. i was surprised to see him there really..
but I didn't talk to him that much cause I was lazy to...( i know i know I can be a very person)

Haiz.. feel like watching movies but, nobody to watch with...if can watch with her then maybe I feel satisfied... want to ask her watch movies but no guts to ask...hahahas( aku tau aku tau, aku kental)
but watching movies with her "ALONE" well I can just DREAM ON....theres no way a girl like her
would want to go out someone like me...haiz...

AIYAH!!!!! I want to die ahhh...so bored at home, nothing to do....
I feel like learning to play the guitar again...hahahaha.

I think by now you all might be thinking"waliao so random sia.. from one topic to another"
hahahaha if you guys think like that, then its true... I am typing randomly....because Im so bored!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well then I might as well end here for now... ciao...

2009-12-15T21:36:00.002+08:00

hey ppl.. sorri for the lack of update...
finally its the holidays....
actualli it started last wk sat...but lazy to update tats why..
nothing to type right now...
so ah we will see wad happen tis wk and if i got e mood mayb i will update so until then
ciao...

23/11

2009-11-23T20:19:00.004+08:00

hEY ppl todae's my birthday...
and yeah same as last year nothing. haiz.
i didnt expect anything to happen on this day but yet i feel so disappointed and upset..=(
haiz...
Am i asking too much...? what i wanted was kakak wish me a happy birthday(Tembam) but I guess I'm asking too much I guess...everyone keep saying 'enjoy ur birthday'
how am i suppose to enjoy when everyone didn't even know it was my birthday...
Its always the same every year...what am I thinking..I shouldn't have the slightest thought of difference this year...haiz...
My bro's didn't even gave me a msg to wish me happy birthday...
shouldn't blame them, I'm not so closed to them like last time...
but at least some ppl wished me so i shouldn't be so greedy i guess...
well that's it for today...nothing to type... juz to upset to...
bye

23/11

2009-11-23T20:19:00.001+08:00

12/11 a fucking piss day

2009-11-12T23:14:00.002+08:00

damn piss right now...
partner tak bilang pape sekali kat depan...
abeh bile mintak tolong dari lain. seemuer kata "uat sendiri ah"
cibai ah... org tgh muntah2 mamak puki sardine je mintak pen...pukimak marah sikit
patu nak cari pasal gi jahanam la sial...
da bagus aku tak pecah kan muke babi kau kepala buto...
seriously satu2 cari pasal... bile nak alik semuer cabot turun dulu..
thnx alot eh korang... uat skill marah,tak uat skill pun marah.
tak mau cemburu la sial... korek skill sendiri la sial... aku cumer tlg korek kan kalau btl2 mintak tlg la sial...
binggit siol.."play smart not play hard..."
semuer skill aku uat initiative aku la sial...
korang ajer tk nk cari... alasan aje kata susah nak cari..
aku lagi susah la eh 2 cubicle laki je... semua pompuan ape yg susah... padahal korng yg sng nak cari skill....
kdg2 aku kesian tgk si Zuri anggap krng nye sial...
comment buruk pasal org lain...eh tgk kau sendiri siol...
WAKE UP LA SIA... we got 1 more wk to do this shit...
and u guys cn still complain and laugh there like a bunch of stupid idiots...
FUCK sia...talk so much in the end I got more than you guys...
talk behind me right... we will see what happens nxt wk...
U guys need all the fucking luck u can get...

28/10

2009-10-28T21:06:00.002+08:00

hey ppl todae nothing much to actualli type abt coz todae is the same as other days...
haiz...

Today nearly lost control over myself... man every single time i stay behind her,*her* face suddenly pop up from my mind...and then my body started to move itself...(scary man). so this is what they called uncalled Lust.

but when i think about it, i started to feel confused...whether or not i like her...
this things always give the creeps...nva liked it...

Kesian... akak Rahsia terlepas....haiz...kurangajar punya celaka nye binatang, gi mampus sudah...susah kan hidup orang....

lately cant get enough sleep bcos of that stupid, bloody, atrocious dog up-stairs keep barking almost every single nite.....
until must go inside the toilet juz to take a quick nap for my eyes. or else will grow eye-bags.

k la tis is it for now bye...

fA15!!!!

26/10/09

2009-10-26T23:05:00.003+08:00

hey guys(and gals).
todae nothing much. 1st day for Elder Care posting and its like ok la...for todae..hehehehes.

so anyway I got nothing to do since arnd at 7pm??thought maybe can watch some animes, but the problem was i didnt know wad to watch.haiz..so bored can die le...

Tina quit nursing, You Yang quit nursing, Haiyah now onli left me and Suriya to be crazy in CP. luckily cp/ci not her or else can kiss nursing goodbye...

I dun freaking knw why I'm IR(4 those hu du knw wad it means ask personally, if u knw den officially ur smart) heavier recently(so obvious wad it means)stress???cnt be la sia.. I'm gonna get myself killed at tis rate...hahahahaha...

speaking of getting self killed...My heart has half killed me...God it hurts so much...idk y i'm so confused, do i or do i nor like her...AHHHHH!!!!HELP!!!!

Currently on BIG crisis, why??
heres why...:
Wax finish
Deodarant finish
Hair getting more unbearable to see
Shortage of Money and Sleep
No longer know wad to do at home
Keep flirting wif mummi from dusk to dawn.
keep getting mood swings all of a sudden
and lastly OTAK BOLEH JAHANAM!!

Well thats it for now...Bye..

fA!5 love aizah

Papermoon

2009-10-22T23:40:00.000+08:00

I’m Falling Down Into My Shadow
Holding my breath
I’m waiting on a Deadly Night

Don’t Scary, because the pumpkin coach
That the witch drew
Can be seen in your eyes

See You In Your Dreams
Yeah Baby, even if it’s a scary dream

Fairy Blue
For your sake, I smashed the stars
And decorated the
Black Paper Moon
If you’d believe in me!
When You’re Lost “Here”
I am… “Forever” With Your Soul

If I look up, like the shining moon

Letters emerge on the card
That dropped the sweet, crimson jam

Your Destiny, because if you wish for it
You can seize
Any sort of world in your hands

Don’t get confused
No one can destroy it

Fairy Blue
The proof of living that you gave me
Is the “eternity” known as our bond
If you’d shout for me
I Will Find You My Dear!
No matter where you are
Break the spell bound to us

There are times when I can’t believe in anyone
And become subservient
Nevertheless, your words
Are echoing in my chest at anytime

Fairy Blue
For your sake, I smashed the stars
And decorated the “sign”
When you’d lose sight of your dreams and get perplexed
I’d like you to look up

Fairy Blue
The proof of living that you gave me
Is the “trust” known as our bond
You’re not alone
When You’re Lost “Here”
I am… “Forever” With Your Soul

I can make my way to you, if you believe in me

the further i go

2009-10-21T20:35:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps wats up sorri for e lack of update(as usual)busy wif attachment and some stuff.

I'm beginning to realize that I'm getting more of becoming like a girl. Dun even say the 'word' I knw wad u guys are thinking...lols

I dunno i've been getting some unusual moodswings recently, like a girl having mensuration period like that...I get so irritated easily nowadays. I just feel so sick.T DO

For some reasons i've been craving to see 'her'. Even though they said 'she' not angry wif me but i got a bloody freaking weird feeling she is holding a grudge on me for some reason.

I wonder wad will Akak Tembam will say.???

Sometimes our voices will nva peoples ears. Seriously its so frustrating.
I DUN WAN TO LOSE ANOTHER GOOD FRIEND FOR FREAKING PEKE SAKE...!!!!!
YOU GUYS LOOOOVE BRINGING PEOPLE DOWN DONTCHA. SIMPLY SAYING "IT DOESNT SUITS ME" IS A FUCKING LAME PATHETIC PUUNY EXCUSE...
but its still ur life I hope you dun regret the choices you make.

Day by day im losing my mind, its soo frustrating.

Fri....

2009-10-09T20:51:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps...
today is such a crazy yet pathetic day...
Morning woke up from my dads screaming abt breakfast my sis bought for me..
haiz.... morning ppl still sleeping make a fuss onli...so irritating...

As per usual Fridays got to Prayers...aft prayers met up wif Arshad n e rest...
ask them abt their special day...and they said "BORING!!!"I guess tis year is much worst than last year...

Aft tat thinking of gng home play Lappie...bt mommy said want to go out. Go Shopping!!
I dun knw why... but I'm quite into shopping actualli...
Mommy was like: "kau ni ank bujang ke, anak Dara..???!!!" and I jusz gave her a retarded Smile...lols...!!

Haiz, everynite sleep late cause listen Avenged Sevenfold lead guitarists in action
Synester Gates...!!!!
hahahaha...lols..

well tats it for now, coz dun knw wat else to type...=P
Till then. Bye bye..=))

Holiday also nva update...pfft..

2009-10-07T17:41:00.004+08:00

hey ppl sorrie nva update... but veri lazy la.... holiday dok...
muz chill...

well anyway luckily holiday start b4 Raya if nort I'll kill all the section heads in that bloody campus..(hahahaha fierce kan fierce kan...LAME~~~)
Glad that during Raya I get to be close with cousin who I didn't talk with since I dun knw when...
Not like my other cuzzins hu talk abt ppl behind their back...
MAN... uu knw wat I can't believe I used to be so close to them...well can't blame them, they change alot, acting big and sooo innocent like that...pfft..
I may be harsh to them now but if they realize their mistake and apologies to my other cousins then I most probably forgive them...(No offense I knw U guys tink tat I'm such a jerk wif this but its the truth...I nva even go out wif u guys, and u guys dun even invite me but its the truth...I can be veri fun person to be wif.. but wif that attitudes I'm sad to say Sorri get a life...)

Went jalan Raya wiif Dads side mostly...but must admit more fun to be wif...hahahaha
even though we didn't complete our Raya...I still had fun wif u guys all..

This year Jalan Raya not that much...only went wif Sec sch frends and ITE frends...hahahhaa
Lets start wif Sec frends...One phrase to describe it: KECHORABLE..
hahahaha wen I was wif everione it reminds me of all the things we did in the past...
haiz sweet memories...
Now for ITE frends....met wif Aminah but made her wait for 10mins...but then she call me and said "eh PAKCIK kau kat mana.???" and I was like PAKCIK...aiyoh...
hahahahahaha...
waited for Aslam for quite for sometime but waited ppl from east side even more worse. 1hr... we waited for them for 1hr...jeez they sure do knw hw to make ppl wait...
Ok nw I'm gng too list the houses we went in order...:
Ezza
Ezza's bf(sorri cant rmbr e name)
Kak Ais
Minah Sis's
My crib
Din
Aishah
Syahmi
Atiqah
Aft tat no more...hahaha hafiz house dun knw wen...
and wif that amount houses we went of course we finish late...at arnd 11...
so me, Aslam, Minah decided to take taxi....it took some time for us to wait for Minah to decide...hahahaha
I was kind of disappointed that Shaheen didn't join us( OMG can't believe I said that.lols)wasn't so... kechorable..haiz..
Last wk thurs went to play pool wif Yan and Safwan. And I have to say Safwan got skills damn....nva underestimate him....seriously nva...
Last Fri sad news Aslam's dad past away...May his soul Rest in Heaven.
We decided to visit Aslam on Mon. and of course how can I nt be surprised they were late nt 1 nt 2 but 3hrs....haiz...shouldn't left home early that day...
and now Today went to play pool wif Yan, Safwan, Sherman,Wan Ting and Irfan.
but Irfan played one game and then left.. cos he have to go bbq i tink???

haiz nxt wk alreadi start attachment Man... I feel so lazy to go back.....
Well tats it for now....till I update soon or later...
bye...Oh and rmbr to Tagg me ....dun be lazy like me and not tagg me...OK :))

Holiday also nva update...pfft..

2009-10-07T17:41:00.001+08:00

I will always love you

2009-10-06T15:26:00.006+08:00

I saw this video at facebook and it actually made me realize the most important thing that I've forgotten a long time ago...
So I'm putting this video to remind everyone what is it that's precious to us...

It was my mistake and now I'm gonna make-up for it...
wait for me..

Miseries of Life

2009-09-11T23:18:00.002+08:00

Every moment, every minute, every second..
my heart is just full of miseries.
this pain inside me, can never be heal by anything or anyone
the scars that it was left behind was too great for me to handle.
looking back lets me down, but looking forward just make me want to kill myself
ending all this sadness and misery. Today was the day that breaks me down to my knees...
all this pain just make my tears rolls down on my face even while typing all this the tears just won't stop coming down. The day of forgiving and happiness is coming near. but it seems
it won't be the greatest day..ending my life is all that I can think of..my existence here has no meaning or purpose its just by-standing life that is taking space of the world.
"Heaven rejects beings like me, even the world of Hell doesn't accepts" even if die where would i go..?
I want answers to my questions, I want god to answer my prayers. I want to be accepted from this world before I past.That is my wish. After this post I declare that today is the beginning of my end.

2009-09-11T00:00:00.001+08:00

I have always told myself that we were just friends.
but it seems the more i said to myself the more I have feelings for you...
when we first met, I tried to be friendly with you, and gain your trust.
I don't know if you think I had feelings for you at that time, but I did.
At the same time I had other mix feelings about you.
Its almost going to be a year that we know each other.
I had tried to go towards you for help~~~~~ but I just can't help myself from staring at you. I understand why you so uncomfortable around me, but can you give me a second chance..?
At first I was quite shocked that you were with 'him' but it made me realize that I just have to let it go and continue forward with this pain I bear around me.
No matter how much I tried to blend in, it seems that everytime I look back you start to just give me the look that says "I despise you". You may not know it but my laughter around you there's always sadness behind them.
I may look happy-go-lucky from the outside but I'm just a very sensitive person from the inside. I bet with all my hopes and happiness on that person, but it just always wants go to you..Never I have thought of having strong feelings for you. but it just did.. =(

I am so hating it...

2009-09-09T11:48:00.002+08:00

Yay... finally exams are over...
although I did flunk on my CN a bit seriously I was damn blur...
Well forget about it, I am so going to...actually I dun knw wat to do...hahahahas
Nakalicious brader...hahhaahah
Thursday going to have iftar The Lochness Braders(and Sisters).
Haiz... Its like going to be our last time seeing each other till Raya..Jalan Raya sama2 la sei...
Haiz... Thursday its going to be me, aslam, din, hafiz, minah wifout *1 i guess...
Actually I'm not quite sure if its confirm...
because birthday boyszzz said they want to celebrate their birthday wif their family...
Attachment I just hate it, I can't really work together with those people seriously.... except for some la....can coup but some no...
Tak sanggup sia next week...mcm nak buke sia....kejer petang lagi haiz....
Okay thats it for now...
Sorry if this blog its a veri...dead blog...
very lay to update...BYe.

I am so hating it...

2009-09-09T11:48:00.001+08:00

2009-08-30T11:53:00.000+08:00

hey ppl long time nva blog...
wat to do I'm lazy and buzy wif skool...
haiz u knw time realli is a damn piece of work...
why?coz wifout realising skool is gng to be over soon
and we seldomly meet up outside besides skool.haiz.
I'm realli gng to miss everione actualli,after the exams
mayb juz mayb I want to plan to go and break-fast together
wif everione and I mean everione...Lochness, or watever group
has been split from class, I want everione to be there...
but its quite impossible realli...u dun expect 27-31 ppl to be there rite.
haiz.exams, attachment, holiday then attachment again. reallii except fr the holiday
all this suxs....speaking about class... I wonder when am I gng to meet up
wif my pastt class hmmmm......
well tats it for now...

P.S
mayb I'm gng to change to wordpress. blogger has suckie lately.....

In control

2009-07-07T21:27:00.002+08:00

Hey guys today at school I was so energetic and I have no idea why...??
I am so happy coz get locker alreadi and I sharing it wif no one MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!
I knw I'm crazy. Yesterday emo, Today so happy veri funny rite.... I knw I am....
hahaha aku da gila....
Today so happy to see her face.... so many times some more.... wah I'm so damn lucky today... God gave me chance today I'm sure of it....
I hope he give me luck 2moro as well...
haiz nothing to update animore....
but here is a lyric to a song I realli like....

kiss me sweet
I'm sleeping in silence
all alone
in ice and snow

in my dream
I'm calling your name
you are my love

in your eyes
I search for my memory
lost in vain
so far in the scenery
hold me tight,
and swear again and again
we'll never be apart

if you could touch my feathers softly
I'll give you my love
we set sail in the darkness of the night
out to the sea
to find me there
to find you there
love me now
if you dare...

kiss me sweet
I'm sleeping in sorrow
all alone
to see you tomorrow

in my dream

I'm calling your name
you are my love...
my love...

Okay tats it for now bye.....

The start of my miserable life

2009-07-06T20:50:00.002+08:00

Hey guys....1st day of skool today...
A bad start actualli morning gng to skool saw her....
At skool at first it was like ok..... talk to some members....
aft break.... my old bloody perangai start to react I was like...
shit lah!!!!!!!!!!I tried to cntrl realli but in the end I couldn't.
"why??wats wrng" the whole day I was realli fed up.... I had fcuking feeling tat everione is trying to avoid and ignore me... even though it wasn't the case, but I realli can't stand people who keeps putting themselves away from me.
Its so frustrating..... u dun like me then say la I won't eat u or scold u...
I can't understand y its so hard for me to blend in wif others tat is the same age as me... realli I dun knw y....
I knw tat this post sounds like I wan attention. If tats wat u tink, ok fine watever u want to say jus say infront of me......I'll take it as a advice....
Thnx Alep, Fhas, Mond, kak Jan, Syuk(sori aku ketawa tadi dun take it to heart)for makin my day bit more cheerful......Thx guys ur e best 2nd yrs....hahaha
Tats it for nw....bye

Transformers: revenge of the fallen

2009-07-05T22:58:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps ystr watch Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen at Vivo wif Alep dgn member2
hahaha. Fun sia....
For the whole movie I was like in a trance.... very engrossed to the movie until I realise I have 7 MISS CALLS!!!!!...
Seriously its a great movie....it has action, a bit of romance, comedy u got to watch it....
There I was like "shit I'm surrounded wif couples" 4 to be accurate....I tell you ah... every 10-15 mins they keep asking 'asl muke sedih aje....?'I was like waliao....
Okay la I knw they concern abt me coz I was alone wif no partner...
Thinking abt it makes me think abt her....
Aiyah..... veri troublesome ah tis relationship stuff...
Okay la its alreadi 11:09 2moro got skool gonna meet up wif tina and devi I tink.
Good nite peeps....
till my next post...

I'm Back

2009-07-02T21:56:00.002+08:00

Hey guys I'm back, well onli for a while....
be back in sch nxt wk...haiz tis wk holiday is like hell for me...
well except in my room..hahaha spend the whole reading manga...
nothing much to blog abt actualli...
I got some probs abt some complicated so-called 'relationships'
ppl keep asking me "why u nva talk to her???" at first I thought...
I dun mind, but its getting annoying realli being ask the same question everytime...
all I wan is to get to knw her tats all, if possible mayb I can be wif her....
but tats 80% impossible for me...(well tats wat yana would normally say... but strangely she didn't). I mean wat the hell am I thinking I don't even knw whichh class she is frm... the onli thing I knw is her name.....haiz, I'm so pathetic(rite yana..?).
anyway I'm so psych gng bck to sch can't wait to see the others.... long time nva talk to them realli....
I can't wait to see Raymond, Kak Jannah, Syahmi, Kak Ain, Shaheen, Tina and the rest...
well tats it for now tag me ppl bye.....

Deja vu

2009-05-23T18:29:00.002+08:00

Yesterday... I was like so... there isnt any words I can put rite now...
Went to work yesterday and after doing some work...
I made a girl cry... and apparently its the girl I kind of like. Ok its not kind of but really like...
After she stop crying and went home, everything I do there was a bloody disaster....
Its as if she cursed me.... but seriously I have no idea what I did.
but watever it is. Its almost quite unforgivable of me to make her cry...
I'm so pathetic...Oh my God.
Its really frustrating being Faiz....

Bye.

1/5/09 amazing race

2009-05-02T13:29:00.003+08:00

OH YEAH!!!!!!!!
I'm so glad the family's amazing race was a success....
ok maybe I didn't much of the work my cousins did.
but boy I am so happy....
Wah... I tell you ah like damn you know.... wanted to go to Botanical Garden
was like 'WHERE THE HELL IS THE VISITORS CENTRE???!!!! and all the way I was
'kiwek berape banyak bukit dorang ada sak kat sini....???'
Reach the pit-stop then experiment if can do chaptei(dun knw how to spell sorri)
"20 times!!!!" the most I can do was like..... 15 sia...kaki merah nak mampus....
after that must follow one of the team to the last pit-stop at WCP in the car got many complains sia... haiz....
reach there then eat dinner, announce the winner of the day. then me, kak farah, kak runni
gi isap la sia....hahaha...
and then at 9 they all want to go home coz to tired... but then me n my cousins was like
"a hello the nite is still young sia, ape stim siak kat umah borin nak mampus, lek lu awal lagi." hahahaha.....
ape lagi lepak kat bwk umah isap, ual sampai kul 1 pagi sial....
tu aje ah semalam.
Pics dun ask me ask haqiz dier yg ambik gmbr pe...
ok tats it for now bye....
oh yah... everi1 pls take care of urself properly due to e fcking pig virus.
pls dun try to be a hero or heroine sick dont go see doc... pls ah... jgn nak megarot... ah eh...
bye...

Update

2009-04-27T21:18:00.002+08:00

Hey guys....
long time nva update....
I know a dead blog....
but first things first....
'YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND ME, UNLESS YOU TRY.
I HAD MANY HOPES THAT YOU WILL BEGIN TO UNDERSTAND ME.
BUT I GUESS ITS SOMETHING IMPOSSIBLE FOR YOU ISN'T IT.
DON'T YOU BLOODY DARE TELL ME HOW TO LIVE MY LIFE.
WHO I LOVE DOESN'T CONCERN YOU. ISN'T THAT WHAT YOU SAID TO ME.
BUT THIS DOES CONCERN YOU. BECAUSE THE PERSON I LOVE IS YOU.
IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN YOU THIS WHOLE TIME. EVEN THOUGH I DIDN'T SHOW IT TO YOU
THE TRUTH IS I REALLY LOVE YOU. THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS.'
haiz.... finally now tats done....
well attachment is okay... great, tiring, stress, fun, hand-full of things to do....
but ok....
Recently have been missing adeq for some reason... hahahaha
Adeq abg akan selalu syg adeq....tunggu utk abg lama lagi sikit ok...?
actualli rite now i have no idea to blog about... but I just blog randomly... coz bored at home... wif e computer no more anime to watch haiz....
well nothing to type so... bro jgn marah ah....

Random

2009-04-07T09:19:00.003+08:00

1. Full Name => Faiz Ridzwan Bin Haron
2. Nicknames => Faiz, Iz, Boii
3. Birth place => SGH
4. Hair color => Dark Brown
5. Natural hair style => No idea how to explain
6. Eye Color => Dark brown.
7. Birthday => 23/11/1992
8. Favourite Country => Singapore
9. Favorite color => Green, blue, purple
10. One place you'd like to visit => JAPAN

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love?
Yes.

2. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Dun knw. maybe

3. Do you currently have a crush?
No....No longer a crush

4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally?
Yes

5. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
No. I hope

6. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes..

7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them?
Yes. 2 girls to be exact

8. Are you afraid of commitment?
Nope why should i...

9. Who was the last person you hugged?
My cuzzin

10. Who was the last person you said I love you to?
My adik angkat....the time when i like her

TEN THIS OR THAT.
1. Love or lust
Love

2. Hard liquor or beer?
Beer

3. Cats or dogs?
cats. im scared of cats but i fear dogs even more...

4. A few best friends or any regular friends?
Both

5. Creamy or Crunchy?
crunchy.

6. Pencil or Pen?
pencil

7. Wild night out or romantic night in?
Both. hahaha

8. Money or Happiness?
happiness of course

9. Night or day?
Wish i could tell

10. IM or phone?
Phone

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out?
Nope...

2. Seen a polar bear?
Yerps... at mandai zoo

3. Done something you regret?
Dun remind me...

4. Bungee jumped?
no. but i wanna try

5. Eaten food that fell on the floor?
sadly yes

6. Finished an entire jaw breaker?
What...?

7. Been caught naked?
Okay this is random... No

8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back?
maybe okay.. not sure

9. Cried because you lost a pet ?
I dont own a pet...

10. Wanted to disappear?
yes. when its getting miserable

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes?
Smile.

2. Light or dark hair?
Dark hair.

3. Hugs or kisses?
Both

4. Shorter or taller?
shorter hahaha

5. Intelligence or attraction?
intelligence.

6. Topman or Zara?
?

7. Funny or serious?
funny but serious when have to...

8. Older or Younger?
Both, but only in 1 years age....
hahaha

9. Outgoing or quiet?
outgoing and quiet

10. Sweet or Bad ?
sweeeeeeet but bad with idiots....hahaha

TEN HAVE YOUS
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd?
yes

2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour?
burnt my ears tat day...

3. Ever tried walking on your hands?
yes but not going to do it again

4. Ever been to a rock concert?
sadly yeah... why u ask???

5. Ever been on a cheer leading team?
Nva in my life...

6. Ever been on a dance team?
alrite then hu told u???

7. Ever been on a sports team?
Nope.... but try hard to be in it....

8. Ever been in a drama play/production?
YES

9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley?
Yes... in my dreams....

10. Ever been in a rap video?
Oh darn. nope

TEN LASTS
1. Last phone call you made?
Iqah

2. Last person you hugged?
Raymond....

3. Last person you hung out with?
Aslam, Syahmi, Ain, Satthes, Sachok, Priscilla, Citra
Shaheen

4. Last time you worked?
Dun tell u leh...

5.Last person you talked to?
My sis

6. Last person you IM'd?
4got

7. Last person you texted?
Shaheen

8.Last person(s) you went to the movies with?
Ridhwan, Zakiyyan, Izra and people you dun want to know

9. Last Person Who called you?
Shit cant tell who

10. Last website visited?
http://www.animecrazy.net/

Ten person to do this
1. Shaheen
2. Iqah
3. Arshad
4. Sabrina
5. Aslam
6. Syahmi
7. Ain
8. Sachok...
9. Danial
10. You yes you whos.. reading this blog
The person who tagged you.
Ridhwan

2. Your relationship with her/him.
Best friends

3.Your 5 impressions of her/him.
emo at times, cool but doesn't realise it, fun, lover boy, in this world his one of a kind...

4.The most memorable thing that he/she has done for you
hit me into my senses

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you.
'bro, go for it man...'

6. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on.
WTH!!!!

7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will do?
Shit no way thats going to happen

8. What is the thing you want to tell him/her now.
Long time no see

9. Your overall impression of him/her.
F.U.C.K(frend u cn keep)

10. How do you think the person around you will feel about you?
I have no idea

11. The character you love about yourself is.
Thats up to u...

12.The character you hate about yourself is.
a bastard

13. The most ideal person you want to be.
well as if i know....

14. For people who cares and likes you, say something to them.
I love you all....

Revived

2009-04-02T11:39:00.002+08:00

Haiz.....
Finally rmbr my password...
sorri ah peeps nva update 4got password how to update.....
anyway, bloghopping a few minutes ago and i was like
'OMFG wat happen while i was gone..???'
Holiday going to be over soon haiz.....
at least got out mah...
but unfortunately many unpleasant things happen during the holidays..
which i cant tell.... but some people know...
nothing much to update realli...
i'm so bored.....
nothing to do...
haiz....
oh ya... im not so impressed about this but i have been seriously
getting a major headache and white hairs are coming out from my head
i can go mad..... IN A WAY....
i will relinked u guys soon...
dun worry a promise made, a promise will be done.
gtg want to beg for mercy from my parents hahahahahaha.

Kaze no Koe

Update

2009-02-07T14:58:00.003+08:00

Hey peeps long time nva update.... haiz macam ape nye orang aku ni...
so anyway nothing much i want to type about but, there is something that make me
extremely high and happy yesterday. Wish you could understand how i felt being with you
at the whole time.
Taking care of you is all i wanted... but now i dont think i want that.
Now i want to be with you always... 'Anata to Iru Kagiri'
Even when you answered that you're okay, deep inside i was still worried about you but, I was glad that god answered my prayer that i want to be with you....
Now it seems that i feel that i am getting closer to you every single time we talk and meet each other.
'Hountou ni Boku wa kimi aisteru yo'

Trust You by Yuna Ito

[Japanese Version]
Hana wa kaze ni yureodoru you ni
Ame wa daichi o uroosu you ni
Kono sekai wa yorisoiai ikiteru no ni
Naze hito wa kizutsukeau no
Naze wakare wa otozureru no

Kimi ga tooku ni itte mo mada
Itsu mo kono kokoro no mannaka
Ano yasashii egao de umetsukusareta mama
Dakishimeta kimi no kakera ni
Itami kanjite mo mada tsunagaru kara
Shinjiteru yo mata aeru to
I'm waiting for your love

I love you, I trust you
Kimi no kodoku o wakete hoshii
I love you, I trust you
Hikari demo yami demo
Futari dakara shinjiaeru
No hanasanaide

[English Version]
Flowers sway in the wind as if dancing
So that the rain moistens the earth
Even though this world is alive, coming closer together
Why do people hurt each other?
Why do partings come about?

Even if you go far away
You’re still always right in the middle of my heart
While they remain completely buried by that kind smile
Even if I feel pain
In fragments of you that I held, because we’re still connected
I believe that we can meet again
I’m waiting for your love

I love you, I trust you
I want you to share your loneliness with me
I love you, I trust you
Even in light, even in darkness
Because we’re together, we’re able to believe in each other
Please don’t leave anymore

Today

2009-01-05T20:21:00.004+08:00

Hey guys and gals.
Well in the morning woke up by the sound of my phone
and i was like 'who the hell sms me in the f___ing morning sia?'
So i force myself to opens my eyes and look at the time '6 o'clock WTH'
So i have to say thanks to Wan Ting who sms me in the morning just
to say 'Morning!!!'
So meet up with her at CCK MRT station at 7 a.m.
Bump into Adam at Jurong East and when to school with him
And ah Adam... sorry kalau kau hilang tak tahu kat mana pasal kita tak tau
macam mana nak gi kat Tampines tau sorry k. hehehe.
So reach Simei but me and Wan Ting didn't want to go inside
the campus because all the "senior" students was like outside with a scary look
like lions and tigers looking for breakfast.
But luckily met with Saras then we go inside.
I mean i was like WTH is wrong with me 'c'mon faiz be man go down there
dun be a bloody p___' but for some reason i didn't want go in alone. haiz.....
In the morning was quite boring so i dun want to talk ab0ut it.
During lunch break me and wan ting met Selva then we were like
'Selva wah you already wearing ur uniform seh'.
So we told each other that we will meet outside the entrance
when we finish the orientation.
So after everything me and wan ting went home.
So thats all about it today.
Do you know amazing what a difference a song can make.
just by watching Jackie Chan Adventures.
Zero Reqieum

Update

2008-12-31T22:09:00.004+08:00

Hey people sorry for not updating for..... I don't know how long.
Well i better get started...
As we know that tonight will be the last night for 2008..
all the memories. haiz.
To everyone out there lets not forget everything for that happen
this year.
Tomorrow is my cousins engagement, so i don't know what I'm going to do there.
As everyone knows right now there is a popular movie out there called Twilight
which involves humans and vampires.
Speaking of vampires I realized that I am beginning to have interest for this
fiction beings.
Not only does this kind of shows/movies have involve the plot of vampires
but others too
like Angel, Charmed and my personal favourite Buffy the Vampire Slayers
ouh and not to forget Blade.
You do realize that all this involve Vampires, Witches, Wizards, Zombies and others.
I know I sound like a fiction being geek.
Now back to Twilight although I haven't watch it yet
but i do look forward to watching it.
I'm a bit jealous that many people already watch it.
Okay for my movie list
I want to watch Bed time stories, Twilight, YESman and Tranporter 3
So many movies, No money to watch. haiz.
Okay I am going to say this once.
I am taking Nitec Nursing course at ITE Simei in 2009 okay...
So stop asking me what course I am taking.
Currently I am spending my days at home watching Anime...
Even if you ask me to stop watching Anime I am sorry to say
that I am officially a Anime Freako. hahahah
What can I say its my hobby at home.
okay got to go.
wanna watch New Year Count Down. bye.
Zero Reqieum.

Apology

2008-11-30T20:38:00.003+08:00

I am such a bloody jerk.....
I dont blame him if he broke ties with me and him
why do i realise things so slow...
he tried so hard to stop me...
but i didnt cared and just continued
i am just so stupidly selfish....
Please forgive me i know i became a jerk today.....
I understand if you dont want to forgive me but.....
I just want to say im sorry.....
I'm just frustrated about everything....
I didnt get to the point i even lied to you...
I know i cross the line.....
but at that moment i just couldn't stop myself for some reason
Maybe its just im jealous or crazy.....
I will stop interfering with your relationship
I promise. I swear.
This words may be nothing to you
but you have always been there for me
and the rest of us when i need help
you gave hope. When you needed help i always have something
on. I'm sorry if i'm not there for you.
I promise i will try to make it up for you.
To my friend who have been always there for me.
Thank You

Bowling on 25/11/08

2008-11-26T13:36:00.008+08:00

Hey people its me sorry for not updating for a long time....
Well lets see yesterday me, my sis, zakiyyan, ridhwan and Danny went bowling
at clementi.
We meet at CCK mrt station and Zakiyyan was so desperate to know what Izra
wrote on her shoe. He even tried using force and my arms hurt.....
In the end we never told him, we did gave him a little clue.( Izra jangan marah )
Then we went to clementi and walk like orang sesak nak mampus
We were like 'eh yan kita kat mana sial. mana tempat nye??'
after a few minutes walk we reach the bowling alley but before that
we had a double belated birthday bash by both birthday boys
which is me and Ridhwan. Sial aje.
After bowling we went to eat ate KFC lepas makan buat tower
hahahaha.
here are some of the pics.
Kaze no Koe

Update

2008-11-19T13:33:00.003+08:00

Hahaha finally get my baby back( my comp).
From now on I will always update my anti-virus software....

So yesterday ermmmm. Oh Ya
In the morning my grandma woke me up to join her in a class at
clementi mosque. Its quite fun actually, the teacher told some jokes
which really make me laugh like crazy fool.( well i am a crazy fool )
After that in the afternoon meet Ridhwan and Irfan at CCK MRT.
Irfan was quite late actually.
We went to Jurong to go swimming. The plans is to go to the gym
after that go swimming but then we felt lazy so we just went
swimming. Hehehe.
And so we had a lot of fun there although at some point
me and ridhwan try to catch to some pretty girls
and we lost irfan which we tried to find him all over the place.
After we found him at the wave pool, we talk about some things.
( get the phrase SOME THINGS )
At around 5 we left and went to Jurong Point to eat.
Took the MRT to Lot 1 to photocopy something
And then we went home.

1 lie is better than a thousand truth.
In this life in order to survive
you must first figure out who you are
what is your purpose
what is it that you fear.
If you figure out if I am a liar or not.
I suggest you don't even try to play with me
Human beings will only learn their lesson
when they experience it.
Wheter you lie or not
It will affect your surrondings.
In this conclusion.
YOU DON'T KNOW ME BETTER THAN THEM.
ALL THESE YEAR ARE NOTHING TO ME.
TO BE HONEST, EVEN HE KNOWS WHO I TRULY AM.
By your side I always wear my mask.
you will never know what will happen next
Asobi no Yameta, Majite Kiss Jawwa.

Relay a message

2008-11-10T09:17:00.005+08:00

Hahahaha.........................

Listen up people, Faiz is no longer blogging until he wants to.
Serve you guys right, taking advantage of my friend like this.
Faiz ask me to tell his unity secondary friends that he just wants to be left alone.
He doesn't want to get involve in all of you anymore. ( some friends you guys are)
You guys seriously want him dead, am I right????!!!!!!!!!

Oh and I want to relay a message from Faiz to this guy name Zakiyyan.
He said 'do whatever you want, why not just steal my whole while you are at it'
Boy this guy must be some jerk(In my opinion).

I don't know what you guys did to Faiz, but he sure is in a very Emo state.
I have never seen Faiz so Emo before.
He stay inside inside his room 24/7 if he doesn't go out.

Oh and one more thing.
Faiz said that he won't see I don't know who on Thursday.
Don't ask me why. But ask Faiz.

Well Goodbye

Yesterday

2008-10-21T10:33:00.003+08:00

For every man, there is a cause which he would proudly die for
Defend the right to have a place for which he can belong to
And if we go and fight, we face their hearts in desperation
and shed his blood to stem the flood of an impending invasion

Have you ever felt happy, sad and angry at the same time.
Well I do just yesterday when I went out wif Ridhwan.
It all happen during when we watch the Max Payne which
I am going to tell later......

You feel happy cause your frend get to be wif the girl he likes.
You feel sad coz you didn't get to watch movie wif the gal you like....
You feel angry coz ur frend remind u how much care for the gal you like.

I know the angry part sounds weird but for some reason felt veri angry about it...

Well about Max Payne at first the starting was quite boring to be honest.
But in the middle to the end the movie gradually became more exciting.
Although I tink the rating is a bit to wrong actualli. hahaha.
Vulgarities suddenly came out( quite surprise )
Some ....... came out( you got to watch it for ur self)

Well this is it for now...... OH.
About the lyrics up there the song called Invasion.....
bye

Kaze no Koe.

Today....

2008-10-15T20:28:00.003+08:00

Hey people sorry for not updating for a long time but lazy to do so. Hahaha
Nothing to update.
Today we were suppose to go 'Jalan Raya' but postpone because some people lazy to go out, Excuses.
So nothing to do at home. I just want to put down the lyrics to this song.

I'm sittin' here all by myself

just tryin' to think of something to do

Tryin' to think of something, anything

just to keep me from thinking of you

But you know it's not working out'cause you're all that's on my mind

One thought of you is all it takesto leave the rest of the world behind

[Chorus]Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did

And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did

And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did

And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself

that you're not the one for me

But the more I think, the less I believe it

and the more I want you here with me

You know the holidays are coming upI don't want to spend them alone

Memories of Christmas time with you

will just kill me if I'm on my own

[Chorus]Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did

And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did

And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did

And you didn't mean to love me back

I know it's not the smartest thing to do

we just can't seem to get it right

But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight

One more chance tonight

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar

But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far

I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you

Oh please, baby won't you take my hand

we've got nothing left to prove

[Chorus]Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did

And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did

And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did

And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

And I didn't mean to meet you then

we were just kids

And I didn't mean to give you chills

the way that I kiss

And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did

And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did

Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did

No, you didn't mean to love me back

But you did

If you don't know what's the title its called 'a lonely september'

haiz this is for now......

Bye.

Kaze no Koe

Just want you to knw

2008-10-04T13:06:00.003+08:00

Even though I heard this song many times I still want to sing it to you till now but perhaps maybe you will understand if I put the song lyrics here.

"I want you to love me, but I dont think you will."
I wander around as I repeat this to myself
It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt.
I'll say "I love you" to the one I love

Do you love me or not?
I don't care what the answer is, I just need to know!
No matter how badly I desire to be with you
There are many unchangeable things in this world
and my love for you
can't be stopped by anyone

As 1000 nights pass, I long to tell you
I have to let you know
"I want you to love me, but I don't think you will."
I wander around as I repeat this to myself
It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt.
I'll say "I love you" to the one I love
Putting these feelings into words is so scary
but I'll say "I love you" to the one I love

The happiness we chance upon in our lives can't be expressed in words
That's why we can only smile
Why we sing "do re mi" among the vivid autumn colors
With winter at our backs, and the spring sunbeams peeking through the leaves
as to protect someone who's just been reborn

As I looked at the road I'd traveled and the path ahead,
my eyes were filled with cowardice
I wanted to look into your eyes, but was afraid I wouldn't be honest
I didn't want to know that you didn't love me
and live the rest of my days alone
That day, I kept on loving you without getting hurt

As 1000 nights pass, I long to tell you
I have to let you know
"I want you to love me, but I don't think you will."
I wander around as I repeat this to myself
It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt.
I'll say "I love you" to the one I love
Even if my feelings aren't returned, I can say "I love you" to the one I love
And that's the most beautiful thing in the world

This is actually a japanese song but I translate it to english for you to understand.
I just want you to know.

Kaze no Koe

nothing

2008-09-24T16:56:00.004+08:00

Kau gadisku yang cantik
Coba lihat aku disini
Di sini ada aku yang sayang padamu

Kau gadisku yang manis
Coba dekat aku disini
Di sini ada aku yang cinta padamu

Walau ku tahu bahwa dirimu
Sudah ada yang punya
Namun aku tunggu sampai kau mau

Woo woo jangan jangan kau menolak cintaku
Jangan jangan kau ragukan hatiku
Ku kan selalu setia menunggu
Untuk jadi pacarmu

Woo woo jangan jangan kau tak terima cintaku
Jangan jangan kau hiraukan pacarmu
Putuskanlah saja pacarmu
Lalu bilang I LOVE U padaku

Walau ku tahu bahwa dirimu
Sudah ada yang punya
Namun aku tunggu sampai kau mau

Woo woo jangan jangan kau menolak cintaku
Jangan jangan kau ragukan hatiku
Ku kan selalu setia menunggu
Untuk jadi pacarmu

Woo woo jangan jangan kau tak terima cintaku
Jangan jangan kau hiraukan pacarmu
Putuskanlah saja pacarmu
Lalu bilang I LOVE U padaku

Woo woo jangan jangan kau menolak cintaku
Jangan jangan kau ragukan hatiku
Ku kan selalu setia menunggu
Untuk jadi pacarmu

Woo woo jangan jangan kau tak terima cintaku
Jangan jangan kau hiraukan pacarmu
Putuskanlah saja pacarmu
Lalu bilang I LOVE U padaku

ST12
PUSPA ( Putus Saja Pacarmu )
This lyrics is especially for her.....
I hope she realise this.......
Izra aku harapkan kamu akan sedar saya betul betul cintakan kamu

2008-09-17T21:59:00.004+08:00

Hey guys its me again now got time a bit only....hahaha....
Wah I tell you just came home fromTerawih not Tarawih ahhh....
In between the prayers I sms a girl cause I dun want her to think tat I am a stalker....
But after Terawih I told her who I was and then I ask her if she is angry wif me....
Wah I tell you ah..... She told me tat she's not angry but her guy will.
So you knw wat she did, she told her guy about it and then her 'guy' call me and said tis.
' I hope you wont disturb her coz she and me are attach so can we lets clean tis and dun make tis prob bigger'.
Okay I accept but, he nvr let me explain why I sms her in the first place.
Well what can I say some guys are so impatient sia.....
Havent even finish talking yet alreadi hang up haiz.....
Well to tat girl I juz want to say tat I'm sorie tat I disturb you but, I juz dun want you to tink tat I am a stalker okay so I'm sorie.....Alrite.
Well tis is it for now bye....

Kaze no Koe

**** I hope tat you get better soon....

for a while

2008-09-17T16:29:00.003+08:00

Hey onli got thsi kind of time then can update my blog busy mah.....
Recently I've been listening to tis song.....

The song is title second heartbeat I knw ahhh tis is quite an old song, but u tink I care.
Wah..... I tell you I will salute to the drummer damn I tell you difficult sia to play tis song.
see the music sheet onli....... wah....x).
Well tis is the onli thing I can update for now
Bye.

Kaze no Koe

Izra i knw u feel quite hurt... but bear wif it coz it will lead you to a better life.

Fast Update

2008-08-31T11:33:00.006+08:00

Hey ppl its me Faiz sori for not updating for the past few weeks, but you know 'N' level preparations sucks.
So its just a fast update today.
Hais..... starting tomorrow already 'puasa' ( fasting lah) ahhh...
but its a gd thing, all the devils will be lock up in...... ahhh...... damn i forgot but who cares right.
Well starting next week also got 'N' levels.......
Wak...... wak...........wak....T.T
Well this is the only thing I can update for today.
So until Raya I won't be updating the blog so keep on reading ppl.

Kaze no Koe

On a Saturday.

2008-08-03T12:13:00.002+08:00

Hey ppl its me Faiz again sori for not updating the blog for a long time cause i went on a temporary HIATUS.

Okay so its abt yesterday in the Morning woke at 5 and get ready to go to skool for Sport Fiesta 2008. It was a hot day and sleep in most of the games cause quite lazy to play all the games.
But the fun part abt the Fiesta is when we ate popcorn together which was quite hard to chew so forget abt the Fiesta stuff and continue to wad we did in the afternoon or should say in the near evening.

At around 4.50 me and my sis went to meet unexpectedly with Zakiyyan and Teng Hui.
Then we took the MRT to Causeway Point, met Izra suddenly to watch the movie THE DARK KNIGHT.
Juz to get six tickets was tough enough but waiting for a so called special person name Danial
was longer.
During the movie Izra was so engrossed in the movie tat she forgotten tat her arm is injured.
As for my sis she slept in middle of the movie sway man.
After the movie Izra suddenly had a headache due to the strong sound effects of the movie.
And so we thought wanting to go home then suddenly Izra, Zakiyyan, Danial said they were hungry and so we went to Mac and eat.
There we told some lame and funny jokes and some pastimes quite amusing actually and so after eating and talking we went home.

Well tats it for my post ppl and a reminder I'll will be going on a HIATUS til after my 'N' level
so give me tags till my Chat box flooded. Bye

Kaze no Koe

Tuesday..........

2008-07-22T18:25:00.003+08:00

Hey ppl its me again....
Sorry for not updating for I dun knw mayb a week, Cause my internet access have been cut for some reason.
Well anyway here wats happen today.
Morning Woke up around 6.50 a.m juz to check if my Internet is working or not, lets cut to the chase shall we.
So when to skool 1st period we had music which we watch a movie called HairSpray.
My music teacher keep singing the song from the movie and I tink my eardrums is bleeding.
So anyway for our next lesson we had P.E which took most of us 20 mins juz to change to our P.E attire.
Next coming up was my most favourite ( did I spell right) lesson everyday and it was RECCESS.
After reccess we had Eng and we have to do a Test (aahhhhh).
And so the last lesson was Maths nothing much except for the part we had a paper ball fight (YEAH BABY)
After skool met up wif Danial and go eat lunch wif him, Zaki and Azmee.
After we eat lunch bump into Ridhwan and went to NP room juz to clean the place up.
At 4 we went home together.
And so we went our seperate ways and reach HOME.
Finally I juz wan to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MUM AND SHAMSIR.
Cant wait for 2morrow birthday bash to Nafis yeah..... I've been waiting tis moment for months
And by the way I may not update my blog for another week cause muz study for 'N' lvel mah bye.

Kaze No Koe

Sunday 6/7/08

2008-07-06T22:01:00.002+08:00

Hey ppl.
Well for starters around noon die, die muz go jemputan, 2 some more you knw.
After tat around 2+ change our clothes and go shopping at Singapore Expo.
Mummi bought for me 2 new clothes for going out at a particulary day which I dun knw.
After tat went and eat dinner at West Coast.( I tink i am in heaven.)
Well tats it for now....

Kaze no Koe

Unity Rhapsody 5/7/08

2008-07-06T08:47:00.023+08:00

Hey guys its me again Yesterday went to the Unity Rhapsody Concert
wif Ridhwan, Danial and Irfan.
On the way we met up some ppl going there to.
Me and Irfan went to buy our ticket 1st while Ridhwan n Danial went somewhere...
went inside the theatre at 6.30 sharpget our sits and sleep.
No lah joking, waited for quite sometime well enough talking here some pics from yesterday.
And u might juz see a special VIP.

Me and Dan

The 3 of Us

Looking for our gals
Dan
Me Candid
Dan tempted
Me candid again
Possing for the camera before going inside
Me and Dan again
Our special Vip Kenny Toh
How many of u tink tat Izra look pretty in tis clothing? Well I do.
In the MRT
Ridhwan candid
Again the same ppl
Nice effect sia...

Well tats it for today.

Kaze no Koe.

Friday

2008-07-04T23:40:00.002+08:00

Okay it was damn f**k lah tat I have to open both of my sweet packets.

My class sure can it sweets especially Hawa.

She took almost of the sweets at one go sia, seriuosly sia I dun wad to say to her.

After skool of course we have to go for our prayers but before tat we went to change our clothes.

After prayers me and Irfan stay in skool and relaxs ourselves inside NP room shiok..

After a minute or two my old frend Syafiq Jazli came damn I was so happy.

Many of my seniors and squadmates came... sigh remembering the good old days it was fun.

After training went home, I was so tired tat I forgot to take a shower.

Hey I suddenly realise tat I keep using the word 'after'.

Sorry if you tink tat the word was irritating.

Huh why do I always tink of her every single minute.

I hope she will realise my feelings.

Okay no more emotionals.

Bye for now remember to tag and especially you HIDAYAH

Kaze no Koe

2/7/08

2008-07-02T22:03:00.003+08:00

Wednesday sigh.....
Damn I think I gain weight again man.....
Okey lets get to the point, today was nothing to say for the fact tat my classmates
were taking their 'N' level eng oral today.
I wish them lot of luck including me of course.hehehe
After me, Irfan, Safwan went to Cabin and watch 'L : Change the World'
It was fun watching it except for the fact tat there were some digusting parts
... okey I dun wan to tink abt it too scary....
And today I am so damn happy and sad at the same time.
The reason tat I cant tell you guys it is a secret really.....
I juz wan to say tat I have a special surprise for my classmates really...
Even my my bro dun knw abt it.
Well got to go bye

Kaze no Koe

30/6/08

2008-06-30T18:43:00.004+08:00

Hi ppl so tis wat happen today.
In the morning we had a lecture from a student at Nge Ann Poly, the lecture took around half an hour.
After tat we went to ITE Siemei by bus of course and tell you for the whole trip I was sleeping like dead person.
When we reach the campus I was so them sleepy.
After for a 10 mins of waiting our tour guide came and guide us to the lecture room.
There of course there was a lecture but, the lecture was more benefit than the one at skool.
After tat we had a tour a damn boring tour.
After the tour we went bck to skool.
When we reach bck to skool I was so damn very hungry until I ate 2 plate of white rice with some meat, vegetables of course.
After tat most of the class go to Assembly while me, Adeline, Ya ying, Chitra, Eugene, Rong Guang, Wan ting, Lydia, Mariam, Fifi, Adam, Aidil, Amir and Hazrin went to class 1/2 for our 'N' level.
I tell you there were two Invigilator looks like a hungry Lion trying to eat me.
Damn sia it was so focking scary leh.
Ass sia really, well at least my eng oral is done, now I have to wait for the other tortureble 'N' level exams
sigh........
Well tats it for nw.

Kaze no Koe.

Saturday

2008-06-29T14:59:00.003+08:00

Well it was a simple day as usual my mom went dialysis.
In the afternoon me and my sis need to take my little sister from class.
But before we fetch her we went a bit of SHOPPING damn great.
My sis bought for me a new and personal headphones yeah its great to have siblings.
After we fetch my sister we went bck home and to find our uncle
visiting us .
Can you believe it, they actually went bck at 1 am in the morning man it was stressing taking care my
niece and nephew sigh....

Well tats it for now

Kaze no Koe :)

First week of skool

2008-06-27T21:15:00.004+08:00

Hey ppl I am so sorry for not updating my blog for a long time but, I have things to do you knw...
Anyway 1st day of skool was fun and it sucks.
Early in focking morning got speech 'ALAMAK MENYEPA AKU' .
And for the 1st of a very long time I talk to my bro Yan about our June Holidays.

2nd day was quite boring and its was the most terrifying happen during tis day our science physics base teacher was Mr Khor Bean.... ahh......... SHIT

For the 3rd day I really have no comment on anything on tis day except for massaging 2 ppl, not to mention we have health check
WAH CALAK LEH...

Yesterday which was the 4th day I have nothing to say except juz want to say thnx to Danial for going out wif me.

And lastly the 5th day which was today after a tiring day came back home wif a empty stomach and wad do I find
LONG JOHN SILVER........... oh thank god I was so hungry like HELL

Well tats it for the week Bye
Tia I juz wan to say I really miss you very much and I love you very much.

hey

2008-06-17T20:05:00.005+08:00

Hi people sori for not updating my blog for a long time but I got a lot of things to take care of.
Of course I had some free time but seldomly ON my computer.
Week 1:
Well for starters I have tis penpal frend from Australia, visit me here in Singapore.
Well as a guy I have to show a lady around.(penpal frend is a girl)
Well her name is Tia Holmes, the reason she visit Singapore cause her father have some buisness here
and she wanted to see me in person.
It was sad tat she have to leave the next day, but I had alot of fun with her.
Week 2:
Well my sister went to a NPCC camp called ATC.
So the day she come back home I fetch cause I had the feeling she was very tired but....
Instead of tired she complaint tat she was very super-duper hungry, so as her brother I have to treat her a meal at Mac.
There we met Danial and Ridhwan.
Since we live close to each other we went back home together.
Week 3:
In this week my parents make with me a deal.
If I do the housework every three days they will pay me $50 a month(hey better than nothing inside my wallet)

Well tis is for now, for the fourth week you will have to wait until school re-opens bye

To my dear Tia I love you very much ZT:)

sori

2008-06-06T17:57:00.003+08:00

Hey guys sori abt not updating my blog for quite a long time.
But I juz wan to say tat will I not be available for let say maybe
another 5 more days.
So dun expect me update for another 5 more days...
And Tia I appreciate for all those days we been through together.
Well tats it for now bye..

What a day

2008-05-29T22:58:00.003+08:00

For starters.......

Morning woke up took shower and left for my check up somewhere.
After that went to get my passport where everyone knows where to go and get it.
And just when I thought we can go home.
My mom said she want to get some clothing at Bugis sigh..........
I thought she was going to buy her personal stuff but guess what.
Instead she went to get swimming suits for my sister and us.
God please help me....
While they went shopping, my dad and I get ourselves something to eat.
Damn its the best thing I ever tasted.
Yeah it was a good experience, even though it tired me out easily.
Well thats it for now.
Enjoy ur HOLIDAYS PEOPLE.

Tired, Weird Tuesday

2008-05-27T16:53:00.003+08:00

Well at first I juz want to say happie skool holidays from me to you.
Now lets see woke up in the morning turn on my comp and watch a music video.
After that went out wif my mother and sis.
Ate breakfast at Mcdonalds and talk for an hour.
Then we went (sigh..) shopping at somewhere you don not want to knw.
We took a train bck to Lot 1 and the strangers thing happen.
A weird looking Japanese lady came to us and said something in Jap.
She said ( in what I understand ) ' do you know where is tis place is? or maybe you are an idiot like the other person I ask ? '.
And so I anwsered in Jap.
' Do you knw that I can understand what you are saying!!!! '
Suddenly she just left off after saying 'baka' means idoit.
And so we .. went home.
And thats what happen today.

MYE Results

2008-05-24T18:09:00.003+08:00

Man it was a bad day for me man. The day i get my results WOW it was a shocking
News for me. DAMN
Eng - A - 76.5
MT - D - 50.5
Maths - C - 65.5
Sci - C - 65.5
CPA - B - 71.0
Well what can I do its been decided stay tuned for my next post
Bye :)

The blog is now open to public

2008-05-24T18:02:00.000+08:00

Now this is been open to all my friends, classmates, schoolmates and strangers
please link me
Thank You